ShivaShakti

Sita once remarked, "In one form I am Sita. In another, I am Rama." In the tender chaos occurring in my being, I am realizing the concurrent manifestation of Shiva-Shakti, or Rama-Sita, Radha-Krishna, of Yin and Yang. Divine Mother is allowing every atom to stretch further than it ever has, for yin and yang to separate, so that I may realize its innate wholeness.

I weep. I laugh. I jump on my bed. Lay on the floor. Sing blissfully and dance in awakening. I sit quietly with nothing to say.

This morning I saw the Goddess manifesting in every woman. Her radiant Beauty, inner Strength and compassionate Manifestation swept across my vision. It may only have happened for 2 seconds, but I was so gratefully blessed with that Divine vision.

I worry about nonsensical possibilities. When I remember that, in moments like this one...I can't even think anymore.

This very moment the Sun shines on my skin. I hear the murmur of traffic, and the gentle song of our avian friends.

Gaze now, astonished lovers,
on the friends of supreme Love,
who manifest again and again
to purify and dissolve the world of limitation.
The very earth is trembling beneath the thunderous dance
of this Divine and human love.

Ramakrishna

I dream about Christmas

Dreams can be difficult. There are so many realms, concious,
unconcious, subconcious, superconcious...They can be garbage from our
day chewed on over again, or simple fantasies, or prophetic and
profound. Dreams can bring us the key to locks presented in 'real'
life.

To be honest, most of the time I simply can't tell.

Last night I dreamt it was Christmas again, and I didn't even realize
it. A whole year had passed and I had no clue! I remember my dad's
voice sternly saying "Akemi! You are silly. It's Christmas!"

Whatever that dream meant, I truly hope I enjoy every moment of this year.

The Meaning of Life

I believe this with all my heart.

In an 1890 sermon, clergyman Henry Drummond talks about our meeting
with the Creator. He says:

"At this moment, the great question of the human being will not be: "How have I lived?"

Rather, it will be: "How have I loved?"

The final test of every search is the dimension of our Love. What we have done, what we believe in and what we achieved, will not be taken into account.

None of that will be demanded of us, but rather our way of loving our fellow human. The errors we have committed will not even be remembered. We will not be judged by the bad we have done, but rather by the good that we have failed to do. Keeping Love locked up inside oneself is going against the spirit of God; it is proof that we have never known Him, that He has loved us in vain.

Rahman--On Compassion

I vividly felt a lack of compassion within myself yesterday. I really
was in complete apathy over someone who was possibly in pain because
of things I was not doing. Today I was on the phone with someone and
displayed no compassion at all over their suffering. I arrived at
this conclusion when I mentally went over my actions over the past day
to see if I have stayed within the boundaries dharma, or correct
action. While I had technically not commited any incorrect action, I
did fail to manifest one of the most revered Divine qualities known to
all realms.

How to work on this? Awareness. Today I made an effort with the
individual I failed to connect with yesterday. I will rectify my
mistake in the phone conversation tomorrow. I plan on chanting arab
wasifas (ya rahman) and following the example of Ascended Master Kwan
Yin.

I am working in a healing modality. It is vital to my development as a
human to become a fountain of Divine Compassion. I have certainly
experienced enough to know what it feels like.

I am not incompassionate with those I respect. Only people I perceive
as weak. It makes me sad to realize this, but happy that I have
realized it. Existence is a double-edged sword.

Only a heart with wings can fly!

Happy New Year, my friends.

I have no delineated resolutions per se, but I do have a general idea
of what I will endeavor to accomplish in the upcoming year.

I will continue to be aware of my mind. I feel its weight dragging on
my heart on a minute to minute basis. It is amazing to me, how
volatile and controlling it is. I am also grateful for the ability to
see these qualities of the mind.

I spent a wonderful evening last night with family and friends. I
participated in the Global Peace Dance facilitated by the Dances of
Universal Peace. My heart did fly. I saw old friends that I have not
seen in a while...and was able to share with them the love I have for
them.

I want to empty my heart out, and fill it up with gratefulness and
joy. I believe peace and equanimity are very important. That means
that I must be impartial to the ups and downs in my life. Again my
mind plays a vital role in that.

I want to take care of myself a little more. My body has worked hard.
It's gone through a lot. I'm so happy to be alive.

Blessed be.