Mercury, Venus and Moon in ColoradoI've been thinking about this, and overall I feel better than I ever have in my life. I'm clear, focused, and secure. I have faith in myself, and all That Is. I've been practicing the balance of spiritual, physical and emotional. It seems a natural inclination. For example, after waking and dressing, I'll do Tai Chi in the morning while my breakfast is cooking. I'm more adept at self diagnosis: i'm more aware of what I'm feeling, and am able to be honest enough with myself to find out what I need to do about it. I've noticed a lot of fear rules my life, and I am working on unplugging from that (re-training my reflexes). It takes a lot of patience and love.
Ever since I can remember, I've lived a double life. I would say about 20% of my attention was focused on present time ('real life'). The rest of the time I would spend in some fantasy world that my mind created for 'escape.' I can't fathom how many hours of my life I've spent fantasizing about my life, my future, my career, my children, my friends, my home...guys i've liked, movies i've watched, books i've read.
The past 3 weeks have been strongly focused on living in the present and letting go of memories/fantasies as much as possible. Can I tell you that I feel clear-headed, energetic, and happy? That I'm making higher grades than I've ever made? With less of the stress and self-abuse that tends to occur? A huge contribution to this is the level of trust I've placed in my Higher Guidance and All That Is. It works! It really works!
Butterflies keep crossing my path, and I'm so happy when I see them. At first I smiled internally whenever I saw one, but today, while driving to school I caught myself grinning hugely as one flew right by my car. I was almost in shock at how happy and grateful I was for that moment. It was amazing. This is how life should make me feel. No. This is how I should feel about life.
Sincerely,
happy and grateful in florida
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